try to be bitch. really cold I have to try again cause last time it didn't work at all.

I'm empty inside and heart made from glass. the only things which I love are alcohol, my shade in the mirror and hip hop. No, I don't anybody at all - do you really think so ? Of, course. cause I'm blond, I suppose I'm perfect and everybody stares at me.

but today I fuck your opinion, it's weekend. World is strange so I fuck tomorrow.

Flashbacks....

I feel as a small girl even if I'm 20, study and have some job. Life makes me feel scared without you.

You were my prince from fairy tale- I remember the day in which I told you that. I know, I'll never find somebody like you,  so Adele lies in her song, it's impossible. You were the one who helped me changed shoes in front of the club and let me sleep in his bed, you were looking after me without any words from first while in which we met.

And today when 3 months has followed I still remember your words and way in which you were looking at me. I remember every single day which we spent together. You made me feel stronger, happier, proud about who I am and what I do. You made me believe that dreams come true... But where are you today? Do you play football match or you just lie in your bed, maybe you try to get rid of hangover after some party. 

But the thing which I'm sure you don't do is thinking about me, am I sure?

I wait for the day in which I will could take your hand once again. Maybe it will be stupid and I wait for it unnecessarily but it's almost all what I want. Of course, I want you back too.

Tears fall on my cheeks and touch the floor on which I sit. You don't realise how often it happens. If only I could forget about You when nobody's going to understand what I mean. If only I'm strong enough not to stare at your photo when the whole world is on my case. Just listen, a lot of coffeine doesn't help at all, nothing helps when I again dream about You. I was asking you not to appear in my dreams but I see you don't want to listen. There's nothing which could kill me more than dreaming about You.

silent

Please, look at me once again. Just for a while and try to understand. 

I still look at the sky when the day is going to over and talking to the stars if they can make my dreams come true. I just want to put the pieces together but the only answer from the stars is silent.

every time

' Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there '

let's go but not alone (:

if you can't.

if you can't understand, use dictionary just to notice what I feel.

sit and drink my favourite coffee with cold milk. It's like my every habit, every is stupid. Just see, I can't make you feel the same - you're a football player, one of the perfect, young, strong, crazy and who am I ? A little girl, a little bad girl or maybe really vulgar who likes drinking more then it behoves. I know, never perfect as you're, never beautiful enough, never seems to be the one for you and never your girl. Again yours. That's way I sit alone, stand alone and go alone. drinking this almost hot coffee I try to understand why we're so similar. I could tell what you feel now but what for ?

' Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there '

still.

because it has to be like this, you can't do anything to change. You only change the road you go but not the people who you meet...

It's only pain, isn't it ? still miss you.