stay with me forever.

They had come and went very quickly,
over and over again left me with my own guesses without any explanation.
I was  slowly trying to deal with flashbacks and pictures of their faces in my head, their voices, eyes, touches, words and promises.
It made me feel so sad than I couldn't expect it would change. I became accustomed to this feeling.
But the day we had met for the first time and my friend said that we finally got to know each other - why did I remeber this words ? Because it was the time when she was really crazy about you.
Since that day I have lied myself I didn't think about you and I lost control on this feeling.
You make me want to try and attempt, thank you : *

My eyes are full of fucking sadness.

I see good things come to the end and probably my behaviour is the reason of this.
You can tell me almost everything but not that I didn't want to try.

I've got really bad headache, fever at night didn't let me sleep a lot.
The truth makes me have fucking sadness in my eyes.
Why? Because I need you and I'm too afraid it won't work at all.
Again. Over and over again.
I can't believe...


I can't pretend some flashbacks are coming back,
I'm not strong enough, I thought you would be my strength...

Loneliness isn't the best adviser

Tell me how I have to live, maybe you've got the better ideas than me. Some people believe they know about me everything, so now is your turn, you can tell me. I promise I'll follow your advice.

Don't you know this strange feeling of happiness seeing through the tears ? 

I'm so glad that I met him but this happiness is hard. I pay the high price for right to tell I'm happy don't you see it or maybe you only see your wrong ? I don't know, I realise I know better what he feels than what you why? 'cause you don't wanna or just can't tell me about your emotions.

I repeat all the time but you probably don't wanna listen to me...

I'm too tired to understand the whole world, I feel muddle in my head.
Loneliness isn't the best adviser

A dream which is in my head

I wait for a day or just for a moment when you will realise this dream which is in my head
Do you feel the same? Do you want just to try?
After dark clouds and storms I can wait for better time with you.
It wasn't our mistake, we didn't do something wrong.
Today, I'm only fucking angry and really want to be held by you.

No, I'm not.

I'm proud of myself and it's not important I spent a half of year just on crying and missing you. 

Today I don't remember the reason why I wanted you back. 

You didn't want to stay in my life a little bit longer, did you?

But today if somebody asks me if I'm sad I can honestly say: No, I'm not.

I don't expect you to be back 'cause I feel I don't need you any more and it makes me feel stronger, makes me live my life like I always want to. 

Even if I make mistakes too many times I'm clever enough to admit I was wrong and this is my power.

Overload<3

To feel better.

Sometimes there's things which make me feel so sad that I can't feel happiness because I met you.
It's not because of your behaviour, you're right to me, you're just honest and don't hide this hard matters
but I realize if you're mine, somebody will be very sad.
I don't know if I have right to make somebody who's very important for me, sad.
Listen, she's my best friend. I know we'll never argue again, we're a little bit clever than we used to be.
And the last, what the hell is with your ex-girl ? She's a fucking stupid girl.

I can't explain the way I want you to stay in my life. I can't explain at all. But I really want. Want more then I ever want anything...

even the sun sets in paradise.

I don't expect you to care about me at all. Every change starts inside

better

I'm looking at photo of you and just don't feel anything.

It's not because of someone, it's because time really treats wounds

but have you ever felt the same?

It's better, I hope it will stay forever.

because of .

I made my holiday, it was great !
I wrote a letter to you and I'm gonna burn it down, today. 
I'm sure it's the best decision which I had made.
I have to, I need .
Now, I'm stronger. This feeling slowly goes away.